I've been pretty exhausted lately. There are a lot of things I want to do and I just can't really find the energy to do any of them.
It was announced recently that the site cohost was shutting down. I had stumbled upon it and been a user since basically day 1 of it officially opening, and while I wasn't too terribly active on it (I somehow ended up getting way more attention than I liked and it #scared me...) it was still a nice place to share my thoughts occasionally and likely lead to this site being created in general. (See:
goodnight archive)
Since the things I posted there were very similar to the things I posted here, I guess I need to finally start fixing up the place and posting here more, to fill the niche it'll leave behind. So, it dying sort of forced me to actually do something I was wanting to, even though I've been so exhausted. I added a bunch of pages to the works section and made an RSS feed, and now I'm writing a new thoughts page here.
To be honest, this is like my 3rd attempt at finding something to say here...I can effortlessly go on about something in text for hours, but only when a train of thought hits me at just the right time, so intentionally sitting down and trying to think of something worthwhile is a little difficult, I guess. I still felt like I should write something at this point in time, though. So here's something.
I still feel very un-confident in a lot of the previous pages I have on this section of the site, the early ones are maybe not very good or interesting, so maybe it would turn people away...I know that's probably just anxiety or something talking, though.
The lame ones are pretty short, at least.
I did actually hide a random page on another part of the site for the same reasons (since I can get away with it when it is from a section that is not numbered) but I'll probably un-hide it eventually when I have more "good" things to cover it up with.
I know I spent an earlier post talking all about how I want to build confidence by openly displaying works I'm not totally satisfied with, but it is hard. I'll get there eventually, I guess.
In terms of working on the site itself...It's been a while since I've made a wholly unique page since most of the new ones I've added are just modified versions of a previous thought page, but they look nice at least. I need to experiment more...maybe when I'm less tired all the time.
Looking back at the dates, I noticed that it's been a little over a year since I first started adding stuff to this site. It feels like way longer...a lot of things happened in my life since then.